cha·grin (sh-grn)n. A keen feeling of mental unease, as of annoyance or embarrassment, caused by failure, disappointment, or a disconcerting event
I experienced a keen feeling of mental unease as of embarrassment this past weekend…
It was a busy weekend. It was a wedding weekend. My eldest was in town to nail down some of her wedding details. And we would be attending my niece’s wedding.
I awoke Sunday, the day of the wedding, to beautiful weather, which is a gift for any bride, but an especially important gift for the bride being married outside.
I was in a good mood and began humming, Going to the chapel… I altered the lyrics to say
Going to my niece’s cuz she’s gonna get married….
Thinking that was rather cheery and clever I decided to post it as my facebook status.
Once online I visited my niece’s wedding website to review some of the unique elements of her wedding ceremony.
This led me to think about what I think is the most important part of the ceremony, the vows. A bride and groom are entering a covenant and making promises, and what they promise is important.
That reminded me of a blog I wrote for Valentine’s Day 2010. Valentine’s Day “when girls dream that red hearts and chocolate will lead to a white dress and cake.”
Now I was very cheerful, enjoying that turn of phrase and thinking how clever I am. So I added the blog link to my facebook status about my niece so anyone who hadn’t read it would have another chance.
It’s a good blog, talking about what remains after the wedding, the promises, and the idea that we really don’t go into the wedding day thinking about a future day when we will get to keep those promises. Good, thoughtful message.
And I thought to myself, has anyone read this? It’s good stuff.
And that’s when I felt chagrined. It was the thought that followed that got me. A thought that recognized a parallel possibility. And it was a question as these thoughts often are…
Wonder if God ever feels that way, about his writing? The Bible.
Has anyone read this? It’s good stuff.