Al Pacino’s character in the movie And Justice For All reached a breaking point at the end. He couldn’t live with the broken system anymore. He snapped and told the truth in the courtroom, which got him forcibly removed. And the movie ends with him sitting on the courthouse steps.
It leaves me with the question, What next? How does one live in a broken world?
How do I live in a broken world, while I ask God:
May your kingdom come, May your will be done.
I ask God- take over, let’s see how it is supposed to look. Let’s live by your rules.
My husband has assured me that we will not see fulfillment of God’s kingdom this side of life.
So how do I live?
How do I live when wanting his kingdom to come feels like straining toward an unreachable goal. When it feels like I am pushing an immovable object. When I have absorbed so much of the brokenness of the world that I burst out in an “And Justice For All” moment, and have now spent my emotional reserve. And I find myself exhausted, sitting on the steps outside the courthouse wondering, What next?
Enter the wise husband. He says I should live according to Micah 6:8…
He has showed you, (wo)man, what is good and what God requires of you: Do Justly. Love Mercy. Walk humbly with God.
Do justly, no matter what.
Love mercy, no matter what.
Walk humbly with God, no matter what.
There it is. Yes, there’s the tripping point for me.
Walk humbly. With God.
Time to move on. No more drama. No more ranting. Stand up and begin again.
I don’t know what happened to Al Pacino’s character on the steps of the courthouse. I don’t know how he moved on, how he answered the question, How do I live now?
But as for me, I will begin again. To walk humbly.
Which is only possible if I walk with God.
May his kingdom come, may his will be done, in my life, just as it is done in heaven.